Never had , and been frustrated for years. (need mroal support)?

well you could try to talk a close female friend into it, or hire a prostitute, and truthfully inst the only ting but from what you've described, you need to have more people contact, go out to clubs and things like that mingle and find a pretty girl buy her some drinks n take her home,, and I'm with you on the public affection thing too it makes me sick hope you find someone