I REALLY need your help plz its long!!?

to me it sounds like you're really torn up inside. well whatever you do just give yourself, your ex, and your family some space. if you have a job then take a few days off and just have a relaxing day. or if you're a partier go out for a few drinks with some friends. whatever is going to happen will take time!! my 4 yr. girlfriend dumped me about a month ago and for a few weeks i became suicidal and i went to drugs. Whatever you do, don't do either of these. all they will do is make it worse. i just took time to myself and went out for drinks fairly frequently and time helped. now i'm with somebody new and i realize that my ex was definitely not what i wanted. and i'm really sorry but long questions get long replies. i really hope this helps you. Best of luck!!!